Saturday, July 19, 2008
You can have all the strength that God has to give.
My mom has this hanging over her kitchen window, and I keep saying it to myself. I am going to need every ounce of strength that He can give me, because I go back to work Monday. I am in physical pain. Cherie is coming to watch Harper Monday through Wednesday, and my mom will have her on Thursday and Friday. I asked Cherie to come and help me for the first week because honestly, I don't think I could leave Harper. This will help make my transition a little easier. A little. I don't know how I am going to get out the door or how I am going to make it through work. I was not prepared for this. I was never one of those people who said that I wanted to be a stay-at-home mommy. But now this precious baby is in our lives and it is ripping my heart out to leave her. Physical pain. So please, please pray for me.
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Trust me, I completely understand! I felt phsyical paint, too...my heart hurt! It was probably the hardest thing I have ever had to do (losing my Mom might still be the hardest), but you will find the strength somehow, trust me. It's not easy, but you will find a way. I've been back at work for 2 1/2 wks. now, and I still don't like being away from Josh, but at least I don't cry every morning on my way to work anymore! Now it's only a few times a week! :) I have always wanted to be a stay-at-home-Mom, if at all possible, but you do what you have to do, I guess! Just hang in there! I'm here if you ever need me...also, I need your address...wanted to send something for your precious little girl! You'll find the strength, I promise!
Hi! I don't even know you (I went to HS with Justin and Brittny), but oh my gosh, do I feel your pain!!! My little girl is just a week younger than Harper, and I also go back to work tomorrow. I cry every single time I think about it! I will be working from home for the next 3 weeks and only going into the office when absolutely necessary, but I will be transitioning her to daycare slowly so that when I go back into the office full time on August 12, hopefully it won't be so bad. You're lucky that her grandmothers can help out this first week! I know our babies will be okay, but I think it's gotta be harder for us! Everyone tells me how hard this time is going to be and I know it will get better, but it doesn't make this transition period any easier! Good luck! I hope tomorrow goes well for you and just know that you have a large support system and a lot of others are going through the same thing!
You. Can. Do. This. I promise you Hayley, you can do this. It will hurt, but how beautiful and blessed a life are you living when you get to feel this kind of hurt? Two months ago your life was forever changed and that change brings with it some of the most unexpected heartache you could ever imagine. But for every ache, there are a hundred swells of the heart, a thousand moments that will steal your breath and capture your soul. Without the bad, we can't fully and completely appreciate the good.
You will get through today. And tomorrow. And the next day and the day after that and you will be a stronger mama for it.
hugging you and loving you from a far.
Hayley,
I love you and I am going to pray for you all day today. God be with you and give you a peace. You can and will do all things through him who gives you strength. I love that qoute you listed.. it is so good that we don't have to make it on our own:) You are a wonderful mommy and God has trusted you with the ultimate gift, trust yourself more...
hey sweet lil mommy...it is monday night...it is quiet and I know from my heart that you are mentally and physically and emotionally drained...and yet somehow God expects you to walk out your front door again tommorrow and do it all again. I would LOVE to have some awesome words to ease your soul...I don't, I would LOVE to sweep away the pain...I can't, I would LOVE to say this will be easy...I won't...but, I will say that the ONE thing in my life besides my girls that gets me through each and every day is my unwavering faith. As God helps me walk on each day so shall He guide you through your first faltering steps back into the world...it may not feel like it, but one day you will look back and honestly "see" when He carried you. Look within yourself for strength and be at peace...and know you are loved. love mimipam
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